Grab a Cup of Chill The Feck Out.

So I got on the social media bandwagon and followed the controversial white moose cafe on snap chat. Whilst on this I noticed a Q&A that Paul had with Neil from Recovery CBD. I was intrigued and had heard before the great benefit that CBD has on some ailments, especially people with anxiety. Cannabidiol—CBD—is a cannabis compound that has significant medical benefits, but does not make people feel “stoned” and can actually counteract the psychoactivity of THC.

Now we all know a few stoners, whether it is family members, friends, or just old acquaintances. This is not hash, weed, grass or the herbal stuff. When I suffered from my very bad back injury, my mother went on a night trip away to visit some family members, they were smoking “the herbal stuff” and said that it would help me with my back pain, Mother came back all delighted and thought she had found the cure for the pain, that I was in, she was heading to Holland and Barrett in the morning to get me some of this miracle herbal stuff. The task was left up to “my not so soon to be sister-in-law to tell her, that you can’t buy it in a shop and it wasn’t legal, that they were, in fact, smoking cannabis. Whereas CBD is now legal all their products do contain trace amounts of THC (<0.2% and within the legal EU tolerances) THC is the bit that makes you high. – CBD is described as being non-psychoactive. If you want more information please go over to their web page Recovery CBD

One of the major downsides of anxiety is insomnia, it’s the overthinking and the grass hoping that is slowly killing me, The thoughts that I think, I sometimes wish they were not mine. I would have usually gotten from 2 and a half to 4 hours sleep each night. Its like when I get into bed my body starts to relax and my brain suddenly goes, OH Fuck this for a game of soldiers, the body is relaxing, so lads now it’s time to go into overdrive. I panic and over analyse not only everything I did that day but what I might be doing in five years time, and oh my god did I really wear that hat in sixth class. Karl usually says to me, “Stop worrying about the little kids in Africa”, because I am usually worried about everything and everyone. Now them kids don’t have any shoes and it’s only going to cost €5 a month to give the whole village some food, but my kids need food, it cost way more than €5. Oh, no will I be able to afford food this week, what if… you get my gist here.

I went to the white moose cafe and bought a lovely bag of Chill the Feck out tea from the fabulous Paul & Jason. Paul told me that he uses the oil regularly and that it had worked for him with anxiety, they, unfortunately, ran out of the oil so I got the tea instead.

So how you make a cup of the tea is put a small amount into a strainer, and pour boiled water over it. Only let it brew for 2-3 mins, then drink. I’ve been taking it most evenings just around 8 o’clock and by 10 I am getting tired and I head to bed. within a few minutes, I am asleep Its a miracle for me. Only once did I feel the “stoned effect”, I had put too much into the strainer went off and came back after 15 minutes and drank it. Well, I was chatty as feck and Karl said my pupils had gone to pin hole size. I went to bed and died for the night, didn’t hear the baby waking up or Gabi crying during the night And that only happened the once because I took to much of it. For this reason, I won’t take the tea whilst Karl isn’t here, thats the same as taking strong pain medication, sleeping tablets, or alcohol, I am terrified that I won’t wake up to the kids. I wouldn’t take the tea during the day because it makes me really drowsy. I’m not too sure if the oil does that or not.

Overall I have to say the tea has helped with a major part of my anxiety. Anxiety and insomnia is a vicious cycle, its like I can’t sleep because I am anxious about been anxious, and yeah I’ve been using It for a week now and I’ve gotten about 5 out of 7 good nights sleep, I mean more than 6 hours is a great night for me.

Because with a good nights sleep you can literally rule the world the next day.

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Disclaimer: I am not paid for this post or did not receive the tea for free.

Tesco v Aldi

For the past number of years I’ve been shopping in Aldi however I still buy Persil or Fairy in Dune’s Stores or Tesco’s  because of my kids sensitive skin. This time last year my weekly bill would range between €60 to €80. However its been slowly creeping up. II’venotice it getting bigger and bigger each week. The food is usually the same the only difference is im buying an extra packet of nappies a week. However last weeks bill was €128.

Also I have the added stress of having anxiety … what if someone is looking at my shopping and saying im a bad mother who’s buying her kids chocolate breakfast … Even bring the kids with me causes me to get palpations I have actually left my trolley full and walked out of Aldi because of panic attacks on more than one occasion.  I have become to dread the weekly shop. Its one thing I put off. And I cant send Karl because he will always, without fail ,come back with some crap.. like we need a petrol generator , but no hunny we didn’t need the packet of ham for the kids lunches..

I know a lot of people has been saying lately that they shopped in Tesco’s and I was thinking that it was to dear to shop there. One person said they used Online shopping.


Today I put it to the test.


I got my last weeks shopping receipt from Aldi the €128 one and Sat down for an hour and typed in every item (that took me an hour to do) and added on extras like Nappies for €5.50(which I didn’t get last week because I didn’t need them) and Persil washing liquid for €8. I got all the meat and veg and (my kids are excited) Real fizzy drinks.. my bill came to €107. For an extra €7 it will be delivered to my door tomorrow morning. Even at that €114 is cheaper than the €128 last week. There will be no panic attacks of leaving the house and getting anxious about if the kids will behave.

And to make things better I had €17 worth of vouchers because I am with Board Gas for my gas and electricity and as part of their rewards  you get 1 Tesco club card point for each euro you pay. Also both my and Karl’s mobile phones are Tesco Mobile and you get two points for each euro you pay on that. So my bill came to €97. And I didn’t even leave the house.

Another few pros of doing my online shopping with Tesco’s.

1. I have till 4 am in the morning to add or take something off my order.

2. The give you a two hour delivery slot. So your not waiting in all day for the order.

3. In my Tesco’s (the big one in Naas) I can actually drive around and collect it from the carpark free of charge.

4. You can opt for a subscription service that’s a tenner a month. Choose any delivery slot on the days your plan is valid regardless of cost Minimum order value of €50 with up to one order a day.

5. You only buy what you actually need. If your like me make a list go shopping and forget the list. And you come home to find out you actually didn’t need another tin of kidney beans.. you already had 8 there.. no one even likes kidney beans in my house. Don’t know why I keep buying them.

6. It saves your last order so you can easily add what you usually buy to your basket.

7. There is an app for your phone so you can go around your kitchen and see what you need and go back on to edit your order as the day goes on.

8. Did I mention you don’t have to leave the house. I don’t even have to get out of my pyjamas.

Think this is the way forward for me.


None of your Business

What the jayus is up with people and their big fecking mouths… I had another smart comment from someone.. and its a question I’ve been asked a number of times, when I am asked what ages are the kids I say 12, 5, 2 and 5 months. I usually get “Ohh that means trouble”, But actually, have been asked on a number of occasions. “Are they all the same Father”

Now number 1. It’s none of their business who the fecking kids’ father is.

Number 2.  So what if they are different fathers. What is it to them. Maybe I don’t even know who the fathers are. Who gives a crap about my sexual history.

Number 3.  If you need to say something that might hurt someone’s feels think about it and don’t fucking say it.

I met my husband 15 years ago and got pregnant 13 year’s ago. I was going out with him for nearly 2 years when I got pregnant.  It was just before my 20th birthday. Not Ideal but I wouldn’t change anything for the world.  A lot of people said it wouldn’t last between us and someone actually said to my mother that I probably don’t know who the father is. We enjoyed life with our little family, I was the young age of 21 buying my first home and 24 getting married. We were just not in a right place of our lives to have another baby, that’s why there is a seven-year gap. Not a huge gap I have friends that have 16-year gap between the kids.

I didn’t need to justify myself to anybody but I am proud of the fact I started so young and am still here sitting on the couch of my own home with my four beautiful kids around me and the boy I met at the door of Ahern’s sitting beside me looking at me, still making my heart flutter.

Holiday Post

1 checked in bag 5 carry on cases 6 backpacks 2 buggies 1 baby carrier 4 children 2 very tired parents.
We are just back from a week in the lovely Corralejo in Fuerteventura in Canary Islands in Spain.  We braved it with 4 kids 3 under the age of 5 and a hormonal 12-yr-old. It was our first beach holiday in 7 years and Family holiday in 4 years.  We braved it with 4 kids 3 under the age of 5 and a hormonal 12-yr-old. It was the first time he ever left me for that length and even it was his first trip aboard without me. (My son that is not father-in-law)
Foremost of all, I felt this holiday was one that precisely was not meant to go on. With several people close to the family getting seriously ill in hospital and we had no passports for the children, even though, we applied for them a month before we were due to depart.

I’ve just made out a few tips to help you learn from my mistakes about going on a plane with kids.

  1. Make certain you receive all your passports in your hand before you book the flights, or even give yourself two months to receiver them. If anyone needs to deal with the passport office in Dublin I’d strongly advise you to make an appointment and go in if you don’t have much time to get one. The standard 15 days for passport express is not really 15 days it’s more like 25 days. And when you call them there is a message telling you that they don’t answer phone calls. They also don’t reply to emails the only ways of talking to someone is Twitter and going into the office. If you have an enquiry you don’t need an appointment. Anyhow, we applied for all four passports for the children to renewals and two new ones went to the Garda station and got all four forms stamped. You need to have the children with you and their father, Naas Garda station was glad to see the back of us.  So, after doing all this paying for the express fee and posting off, we tracked it online and it said we wouldn’t get them back until the 25th April. Sure, we needed them before the 13th .after private messaging them on twitter and it takes a day for them to reply and even both of us going into the passport office on two separate occasions we finally got them on them on the 10th April 3 days to spare
  2. Do not book the earliest flight… It may be cheaper, but your sanity isn’t worth it. We were flying out at 7.40 am, so that meant we had to be up at 4.15 to go to the airport, we did pack the car the night before, best tip ever as it causes less stress. So, we got to Quick park in Dublin airport at 5 am to then park the car, unload the car. (Remember 1 checked in bag 5 carry on cases 6 backpacks 2 buggies 1 baby carrier 4 children, 2 very tired parents) get the stuff to the bus stop while a bus is waiting for us. Kids crying because its cold and they are tired. If I had booked a later flight we could have gotten to airport earlier, hubby could of dropped me and the kids (or half of them) to the airport with the bags, drove back to the car park and park it while we waited for him, by the time we are on the flight the kids were wired and over tired it’s a 4 hour flight to Fuerteventura and they were like a pack of wired cats that got high on skittles. Then they were too excited to be staying in a new place and to see their grandparents and brother.
  3. One big thing is if you are flying with Ryanair don’t try to save the money by not booking in luggage. Its €70 return for a bag, but it’s well worth it because as we thought we’d save a bit of money and only book in a 15-kilo bag for the 6 of us and carry on the 5 carry-ones that we are allowed to. But completely forgot about the fact that the two-year-old and the five-year-old cannot manage the cases and so Mammy and Daddy needed to try to wheel all these as well as try to mind the three younger kids.
  4. If you are bringing a child under 4 I’d highly recommend bringing a buggy for each child. We brought two as even though our two-year-old won’t sit in a buggy at home, she really needed it when we were away it’s a lot of walking and also late nights. We used one for the baby (5 months) also and I brought my baby carrier so I could strap him on. This came in handy as when the five-year-old got tired we put her in the baby buggy and I carried him. Less moaning and when Daddy was sunburned he didn’t have to carry her much on his shoulders. If you are doing this and don’t need it in the airport you can ask them to check it in with your luggage, you just need a sticker label of them and bring it to oversize baggage.
  5. Security is a nerve-racking place even for people who don’t suffer anxiety. I just need to see a guard and I panic that I’m breaking the law. I’ve watched enough of banged up a board and border control to make me think awful things will happen to me. So, make sure all liquids are in the bags that are required by the airport. But baby food, bottles of milk, baby medicine, yoghurts, etc. don’t need to be under the 100 ml and you can carry as much as you like. But try to have them all handy in the changing bag so you can take them out and put them into the tray. The security needs to test these by dipping a swab into them you must agree to this. Also, make sure there is nothing in the buggy basket or in any pockets. This need to be all emptied out. And they also swab the buggy for drugs, I bought it only a day or two before and had never used it that was a major eek moment.
  6. With 3 kids at that hour of morning say goodbye to any airport, shopping you think you might get done. Just head straight to the gate. And if you are flying with Ryanair it’s a long, long walk to the gate. Probably 20 minutes for an adult with two wandering and easily distracted girls its about 40 minutes.
  7. Make sure you have tablets charged earphones that work, different colours and books and teddies whatever your child uses to keep quiet, I had these, but none kept mine quiet, the five-year-old decided to sing the song from tangled at the top of her voice I had to keep telling her to keep quiet. Also, bring soothers bottles and hard sucky sweets for taking off and landing.


I must say Corralejo was a beautiful place and we stayed in Oasis Dunas .Click Here. It was perfect for the children, with 3 pools 4 water slides and 2 playgrounds. They also have a kid’s club; however, we didn’t avail of this. A pool bar that served lunch and drinks all day and a separate bar that opened in the evening a supermarket and a restaurant. The apartment was lovely there were two rooms with both having two  beds, fan, wardrobe and dressing table and a real wooden cot for the baby The kitchen had the standard  Cupboards, fridge, 2 rings ceramic hob, toaster, microwave, kettle and coffee maker, There were a sofa bed and a terrace with patio furniture and a sun lounger and where we where it was a real suntrap.
The town is lovely it has a lot of modern shops like Mango, Bershka and Zara as well as the usual tourist spots where you can get your rip of goods like fake MK bags and Super dry T-shirts. There are tonnes of restaurants my favourite while I was there were INFUSIONS and loved Toro Beach but couldn’t enjoy it as the kids were misbehaving and Most bars accept kids but the friendly bar is Murphy’s Irish Bar.
I came home for the holiday with 3 Spanish looking kids, they all have my shallow skin and are golden in colour and the baby is snow white & hubby is a lobster. The flight home was as much stress as the flight over, but with an added random drug swab for my five-year-old daughter, also she had a Build a Bear Teddy bear had wires in it and the security asked me if it was a bomb. I didn’t even know it did anything, but if you press his ears they light up.
So after the Stressful week of a holiday I couldn’t wait to get back into the norm of school runs, Think the next time we decide to go away as a family the kids will have to be a lot older than now. I need a holiday after it.




Perfect Mammies ( Yeah Right)

What is a perfect mammy, what does she do all day, what does she wear?
When I say the perfect mammy I automatically think of Brie Lawson from desperate housewives. But even she had her skeletons in the closet didn’t she.
Nobody is perfect, I’m trying to beat that into my children every day. People make mistakes and what’s perfect for one person is dysfunctional to another. However, I am so afraid of been judged by people that they might think I am anything less than perfect. Society’s idea of a perfect mammy is someone who is emotional and physically fit has a complete level work to home balance. Feeds the children only organic food and plays with her 2.5 children in a creative artistic educational way. Children would go to bed at the exact time every night with a bath and bedtime story read to them. There is never any pile up of washing or ironing to be done and the house is spotless. She even greets her husband home from work each night with a glass of his favourite drink and a smile on her face.
My life is 4 kids 2 dogs and 3 fish, my whole life revolves around the kids and my husband leaving very very little, actually , no time for me. Last night for dinner was this
potato waffles beans and sausages because we only have twenty euro until Thursday. And that’s all we have in the presses for a dinner. I would love to spend all day colouring in and making creative crap. However, my day is filled with laundry and cleaning up after 4 messy animals who thinks that living in a pigsty is a great place to be. I actually have a laundry room that I am always afraid to open the door because a pile of clothes might fall on me and I wouldn’t be found for days. (Actually, that sound’s a like a heaven,  no kids for days !) and my husband is greeted at the door by usually a kid or me crying in his face. Pleading for help.
However Motherhood has become like a spectator sport, People feel free to comment on other’s parenting skills. Throw into the mix the Internet and it all goes downhill from there. On every special occasion, you will see on every social media outlet happy family and it is like a competition who can have the best happy family picture uploaded. For example Mothers day my timeline on all the social media was full of how mammies where having a perfect day and been spoilt however I know people are not going to put up the fact that the daddy went out the night before and didn’t let mammy get a lie on, and she had to get up to the screaming kids. She has to make her own breakfast and put a fake smile on her face to hide the disappointment. Or Daddies said “awe but babe you’re not my mother”… GRRRR, that gets me how do you think a 3-year-old is going to go to a shop and buy mammy a present or even make mammy a card without Daddy’s help. Or the one that really gets me riled up is, when people say “awe what do you need a day off sure your not working you do nothing all day long”… Don’t get me started on that one that’s a whole other post worth.
The competition among mothers is ridiculous. It’s like that the perfect Supermam went to work and had kids and kept the house clean, breastfed until her kid was 20 and now feed him only organics, take him to piano lessons, soccer training, and oh, by the way, is a  size 6 and her hair & makeup always looks great!  These expectations are unrealistic yet we all know women who appear to be meeting them, but she has probably huge dusty black skeletons in her closet and she’s just better than average at hiding them. But the average mammy out there is struggling with things in her life, so what if she didn’t bring John to football or Mellissa to piano lessons on that one Tuesday, they stayed at home and cuddle on the couch and binge watched the Simpsons while eating crisps and chocolate for dinner. Or she hasn’t had time to have a shower today so her greasy hair is tied back up in a hun bun that the Peru two would be proud of. And she has huge industrial size black bags under her eyes.
I’ve put together a few tips if I picked up in my 12 years of parenting. Suffices to say I don’t practice them always but I always have them in my mind.
  1. Stop reading parenting books ( to an extent)
    Reading parenting books can be useful but too much you don’t have to follow it word for word stop thinking there is one right way to do things and that if you’re not doing it that one way your kids will suffer. You will start to think you are a terrible mammy. In real life, mammies get stressed and lose patience. Sometimes, we shout and get angry. But one of the things that the books doesn’t tell you is that is that children are very clever enough to  know that when you act in love that you’re acting on their behalf
  2. Stop listening to other people’s thoughts on your kids
    You will always get mammies saying to you that “oh no you’re not feeding your child a happy meal from McDonald’s My little angel will never eat fast food”. Number one thing ill say is your child will grow up to be an obese geek because he will be sneaking fast food into himself because one thing kids will do is to rebel against what they are not allowed to have. Number two is just to say “thank you for your input, but you this is my child and I will raise him whatever way I want, you have ( or had I love this for any older women who think they know best) your chance to do it your way.
  3. Mammy always knows best
    She does really you always know by your gut feeling whether it is the right thing or not. Always go with your gut. and don’t let anything or body else persuade you to do anything different. As I previously said it’s your child and it your choices you make for them. And another thing I learned was not to listen to doctor google. you’ll have an incurable disease and will only have 12 hours to live.

So Just going to leave it  with this little quote.

If today we were perfect then there will be no need for tomorrow.